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I've been quiet on my art pages because I haven't known what to do. I was low on motivation last week while we were all adjusting to our new normal. I didn't know what to share, as my priority was just keeping my head above the waters filled with non-stop c*ron*virus (I still don't even wanna say it!) conversation. I didn't share because I didn't have anything to say.


My grad program's spring break was 2 weeks ago, and then it was extended into last week - the first week to really crack down on social distancing. Also the first week that my job (temporarily) shut down due to all of this. I didn't even know what to do with myself at first. Usually I'm constantly juggling work, classes, homework, and advancing my art business. But last week I had 0 classes, 0 homework, 0 work, and 0 drive to work on my business - especially now, when everyone is in tough financial situations.


To be honest, I was in a bit of a funk: I felt anxious and overwhelmed by the absolute uncertainty of this situation. Every single social media platform was filled with nothing but news about it, political arguments, people sharing how crazy it is, upset about the lack of essentials in grocery stores, etc. I couldn't deal with it anymore. It was consuming every conversation, every interaction, every thought.

I had to turn off Facebook; it's too gossip-y, too much, and sometimes, too stupid. I didn't even think about sharing anything on my art pages, or keeping up with the #MarchMeettheMaker posts I'd been curating all month. I didn't have any thoughts of posting at all. I just started enjoying simply scrolling through my art Instagram feed, looking at what other people are creating. Feeling inspired. Seeing other creatives also feeling drained, and sharing their thoughts. Validating that it's okay I didn't do much the first few days. This is a big adjustment for every person: life as we know it is completely flipped upside down for the time being. Uncertainty is a weird feeling to handle - uncertainties about health, finances, jobs, and the regular routines of life.


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